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It’s funny how 6 weeks can turn into 6 months in what feels like 6 minutes. I had blogging somewhere on my schedule but I just kept on bumping it to the next day and the next. I also wanted to shift back to a slightly slower pace, where I could be more mindful and present and connected to my family, especially my kids. If the to do list wasn’t getting even one cross-off, I wouldn’t stress. It’s been amazing seeing the shift back to a more calm me.

I used to get frustrated at myself if I didn’t complete my mile-high to do list in a day’s time, and that frustration would pool into the next day and the next. So I stopped. I tuned into a “whatever, there’s always (Gd willing) tomorrow” attitude and it’s been great. I never strove to be supermom, I just naively thought that I really should somehow do it all or at least do a lot, i.e. cook, clean, bake, host, photograph, edit, blog, organize, shop, learn, socialize, breathe. All that with an infant who seems to thrive on little sleep, a 4 year old who loves to sing at the top her lungs when aforementioned infant finally closes her eyes in exhaustion, and a 3 year old boy who is so discreetly mischievous you’d be puzzled if you two met and I’d share with you his shenanigans.

So while this season of my life is blessedly full, I’m learning to prioritize. Responsibility makes me feel like I’ve crossed into “grown up” category and I feel like stomping my feet, reclaiming my hours and spending them languidly at the farmer’s market or the mall. But then again these little people are too cute and have captured my heart (understatement). I can’t have my cake and eat it too.

Talking about cake, I’ll recap a little to the past few weeks.

My little boy turned three! We chopped off his sleek golden locks as is customary in an upsherin/chalakeh and he donned his kippah and tzitzit for the very first time. yey!